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it's been a while, and a lot of things have changed, but i'm probably the same weird kid who worries too much over nothing. this is my place to worry.
oh and i'm transferring colleges. so expect me to ~still~ worry about college applications a year after the fact.
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This is pretty much how I compute every day; changing through multiple desktops and applications, micromanaging myself and the internet. It's become a way of life that involves a flow of information both ways.. and with the current innovations of the internet I spend more and more time doing this every day.
To be honest though, I don't think that spending this much time is really beneficial. The concept of web 2.0 is to integrate the internet with our lifestyle, but to be honest its more like the other way around -- our lives are wrapped around the internet and I'm afraid that it will come to a point where any IRL interaction will always be awkward. I'm going to go try and take a turn away from constant "social networking" and become more outdoorsy, exploratory and, hopefully, productive.
(I don't even remember the last time I went to a park.)
I think a good way to start (a good tip from mnmlist) thing is to cut down the social networking to just one or two sites. There's a million+ sites that friends are on, which end up stacking up and wasting time. Facebook, Tumblr, Twitter, Flickr, even email are huge timewasters. I think I might cut down to just Twitter because it (without mobile updates) takes up the least time. I hate Facebook way too much, but i think ill just keep the account because "everyone has to have a Facebook".
We'll see how this goes.
p.s. Of course, ill keep xanga. why? Because xanga is one of the few places where you can be yourself. | | |
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by the way, happy july 4th. or whatever.
I went to Splish Splash with some cousins today and it was extremely refreshing. I was so busy over the last few weeks finishing the “arc” of high school and planning the next “arc” of my life that a day to just sit back gave me some breathing space.
I spent the majority of the time lying in a beach chair on the sand, resting my eyes in the beautiful weather — sunny and breezy, trees blocking the bright sun but letting bits of warm tangible beams through — one of those moments that you want to last forever. I spent the time thinking.. thinking about what was going on in my life with a better, third-person perspective. I realized that a reason for my avoidance and mindless mannerisms in the last month was because I really didn’t want to face what was to come. Senior year was finished and High School in general has finally passed me by. It felt like the fun was all over and the rest of my life was going to be filled with just work. This is somewhat true though, and though I know there’s no way for me to avoid this path (and I still don’t want to) I still don’t want to take part in it.
However, what was true was that it currently wasn’t the time or place for that. It’s just the beginning of summer, and my plans are already made. I’m now an intern, I’ve planned to make some revisions again, and I’m going to study in Paris. This is the beginning of the summer of mark, and I’m going to enjoy every bit of it before college starts, because the fun is just not yet over. | | |
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